What are you thinking about this holiday season? Hmm... To be honest I havent been thinking about much. My mother nagging me on the daily has me disillusioned and slightly unmotivated to get into the Christmas cheer. Funny I havent been griping about much either... I am finally settling in the idea of "what ever will be, will be! For my children I had hoped to payoff the WALMART lay away plan for  Acer notebooks. Not happening because the part time hours were cut from Saldivars . So Ive continued with employment seeking. May of had some glory today due to completing an application for Billy Bob's Hamburgers and turning it in. Being on leave from college ( IADT) has me some what bored and almost lost. Thank Goodness I re- did admissions for Febuary 2012.

    I was the type that would always say: "I would rather strip at a gentlemans club then go back to fast food." Havent had to do a fast food job since I was 15 and 16 years old. Well theres no nudie bars here in this small town. LOL... aside from that I did take the liberty of calling up a few places last night in the city of San Antonio Texas to inquire about auditions to dance. Iron and fate love me... so it would be so ackwardly funny if I ended up doing both!

     So heres the scoop. I went through the trouble of actually interviewing a former pro football player about the details concerning dancers in the gentlemans club atmosphere. His name will remain anonymous due to particualar circumstances. He straight out told me that Dancers make their best money doing lap dances ( $20.00 every 5 minutes)... He said it really didnt  matter how they looked as long as they knew how to work what they had. He also mentioned that the pole dancing was sort of like window shopping. I couldnt help but entertain the idea if I had what it took. How difficult  could it be? Then I thought back to all the wild stories that one of my latin exes had mentioned; even the videos of some of his ex girlfriends werent all that. Yet all of them shared one thing in common: they all moved like fluid. It was almost like slipping into a trance. It was mesmerizing almost addictive to watch their hips. I know it sounds strange but Im just being honest.  At that time( 2008) I was a girlfriend in training . The sudden sex appeal that comes with a womans natural curves and yet the dignification of  innocense contrasted with  nudity.... How ingenious.